You probably aren't doing anything significant?

I recently read this quote by Israel Wayne. He's a popular conference speaker who lives in Michigan state. His words really struck me hard.

"If no one is accusing you of being too legalistic, then you probably aren't living a holy life.

If no one is accusing you of being a 'bleeding heart', then you probably aren't loving enough.

If no one is accusing you of being too dogmatic, then you probably aren't standing for the truth.

If no one is accusing you... or criticizing you...you probably aren't doing anything significant."

Why this same old issue seems to arise in me every day is difficult for me to understand!

"Am i doing anything significant? "

I steward my life in such a way so that i don't have to have people accuse me of this or that. I want to be liked and loved, and thought of as great, and useful. Not loud, ill tempered or dogmatic.

I guess if i measure my significance against a worldly standard. i am pathetic.

I work at starbucks making minimum wage, i have never really accomplished any MAJOR goal i've set for myself, and i haven't changed to world.

Neither am i working with those in need to make their lives a better place, or seeing my friends and family get saved.

I am just a woman.

This may sounds slightly cheesy; but if i can accomplish being a Proverbs 31 woman. I am significant.

Hasn't it only been in the last 100 or so years, that woman have had to work for status?

Did not God create woman to bear children, and run their homes, and support there community and intensely love their husbands?

Did not God create woman specifically to be a partner for the man? I may sound old school here, but hear my out.

I'm not trying to sugar coat my lazy desire to quit work and stay at home, or give an excuse as to why i don't seem to meet my goals. I'm just staying that i've talked to way to many girls friends who don't feel significant, and i'm trying to find out why?

God wants to use me, and wants me to be willing to be used by Him, but i can't do that if my focus is on appearance and a concern for my own personal well being. I have to be open to Him daily.

I have to put off my own goals, and desires for status or an amazing worldly job so that people would think better of me, if i want to be used by Him. It's actually quite simple. Serve Christ Above All Else.

You may accuse me of being legalistic, you may accuse me of being overly sensitive, You may accuse me of being a bit sexist.

You can criticize all you want.

For i know, my worth is in Christ. And I am significant to Him.

~The Warrior and the Wife~

From my heart, i feel. From my eyes, i judge. From my ears, i try to listen. From my hands, i hold a selective few. From my feet, i fear to tread new territory.

From his heart, is love. From his eyes, is compassion. From his ears, he hears beauty. From his hands, he reaches out. From his feet, he'd walk a thousand miles and then some.

My Husband is Amazing.

He is my best friend.

He Strives to be like Christ.

Not only is he great! He helps me be a better person too.

When i look in his eyes, i see kindness. He eludes Jesus from his being.

He is my helper, supporter, and caregiver.

What my God has done for me, by giving me such an amazing companion, speaks volumes of His love for me!

God organized our lives together in such a way for each other.

I am so thankful for my partner. I am so thankful for my God.

This easter i want to give Praise to God for saving my husby.

Giving him new life, through Christ's death.

~The Warrior and the Wife~

Time to Set Sail.

I know this may seem weird.

I start a blog, write two posts, leave it and never come back. Until now.

When i first started my blog i was excited to share what i had on my mind, i was nervous about those who might be reading it, and i wasn't sure if i was doing it all for the right motives.

Now...after a year of learning and growing and taking one more step in my journey, i've realized this is something i really want to do!

But i didn't get there alone. With help from Earnest Shackleton and the inspiration of my beloved friends, i am back!

Earnest Shackleton, the famous polar explorer from 1914 put a very interesting want-ad in the newspaper:

"Men wanted for hazardous journey. Small wages. Bitter cold. Long months of complete darkness. Constant danger. Safe return doubtful. Honour and recognition in case of success." Who wants in!? "ME ME ME".

In total, 27 crew members were recruited for a journey aboard "The Endurance" for a 2-year British Imperial Trans-Antarctic Expedition. Despite their boat sinking and living on a piece of floating ice for 497 days in Antarctica, every single man eventually made it home to safety.

Last week a really amazing couple, who are best friends with me and husby, told us they were leaving the country for two and half years! I instantly was sad, and started crying like a baby.

God had told them to go, He had opened the path for them to move to costa rica, they listened, sold or gave everything they had away, packed up a 100 things, and left!

Shocker!

At first i was angry when i heard the news. I never pictured our life without our best friends in it! Then i was sad, they were leaving us behind to go this great adventure without us!

Then after thought and prayer, i was happy for them. I felt peace, and i knew they had made the right decision. They were following their dreams, better yet....God's dream! And they were a part of it!

It made me wonder. If my own dreams aren't all that exciting, if i'm not moving to strange a country to grow closer to God, if i'm not pastor, or a counselor, or a NGO worker, who i'm I? What am i doing to change or help the kingdom of heaven? Is my passion to be a mother enough? Should i enjoy living in a culture with cute shoes, and cute clothes!? I'm i materialistic because i have soo much? Is it wrong that lamps and candles and art make my heart beat faster!

All these question did consume my thoughts. Why wasn't i being used? How come husby and i weren't asked to go!?

Truth is, would I have listened? Could i sell everything i have? Would i be willing to give up my family, my belonging, and my friends? I still don't have those answers, and I would like to believe that if God told me to GO, i'd GO....but.

That's just it.

There is a but.

Because of my moment of hesitation i wonder if that "but" is preventing me from stepping out and doing the will of God.

I really don't know what my God ordained life should look like. I struggle with that. Yet i must say. Because i struggle, i feel happy.

I am encouraged, and i am happy.

"when we are weak, he is strong" - 2 Corinthians 12:10

When our friends stepped out in faith like that, to do something crazy and wild, and extreme, it made me want the same. I didn't and don't want to move away, but i do want to be used.

God send me on a chase! Help me find what you have in store for me!

So the reason i've decided to blog again?!?

Well, it's simple really. I need accountability. I need to regularly be reviewing what i'm learning, I need to be intentional about finding truth where i go, and i need the chance to reach, teach, and guide others towards Jesus! Who knows, maybe i'll encourage some too, like J&M encouraged me!

It's time to raise my sails, and answer God's ridiculous want-ad for me, "Live dangerously. Live outside the box. Tour the world. Live simply. Experience mountain tops and long months of complete darkness.... Honour and recognition in case of success."

Bon Voyage!

The Warrior and the Wife